That after you did me wrong, I’m supposed to easily forgive and forget it ever happened just to be with you … Be with you because now is the time where you can’t live without me and you just love me so much… I’m the bad guy because I just can’t seem to just go with the flow and trust that I’ll never experience the pain that I felt before. Before when you couldn’t tell me that your daughter was yours… When all you could do was show me the tattoo of her name on your arm as if I was suppose to just know from that that you’d had a baby and I wasn’t the mother. She was 5 months, but we’d been together for quite some time and not once did you think this was something I should know… Love makes you do dumb things, so I said it’s whatever, let’s be together. Only for the cycle to repeat itself and I’d find myself in a place much darker than the one before… A place where I just hated myself and never wanted to love again. Had bitches wanting to fight me cause you lied and said she was a thing in the past; begged me to stay… 2 months later she’d give birth to your child and you’d take in her previous children discarding me like the trash I thought I was… I thought less of me because I thought so much of you. Fuck was I thinking? 3 years later, you’ve returned with bullshit apologies… A bunch of I need you’s and a constant annoyance of I love you… But in reality, you miss the convenience of me. If she never left you, you’d never think of me. So nah… We could never be. I’m loving me some me…
28 Free Things To Do In The South Jersey Area This Summer.. With The Kids! (or just as cool without them.)Posted in Uncategorized on June 12, 2014 by Mira
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They say, “The best things in life are free.” No kidding! Here are some great and FREE places that are kid-friendly to see this summer of 2014!
1. Batsto Village, Wharton State Forest
Take a tour of the museum and learn about the ecology of the pine barrens..then tour the grounds and saw mill. Bring a picnic lunch and hike portions of the Batona Trail.
2. The Palmyra Cove, Palmyra
Learn about the Delaware River in the free museum and pursue the small art gallery. Learn about the “baseball mud” used in the MLB, tour the trails and see various flora and fauna on the property.
3. The Cape May Zoo
Probably the most-popular zoo in the area (besides Philadelphia’s). The kids will have a blast!
4. Enjoy A Beach Day in Wildwood
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In 2011, I got to meet a very ambitious determined young woman who attended Temple University. We worked together volunteering for the African American Film Releasing Movement (AFFRM). It was a wonderful October night as we successful had quite a few sell out crowds for the Ava DuVernay film “Middle of Nowhere”. We got to talk for a few and look over some photos and of course, meet Omari Hardwick. How cool is that? Well, I am going to fast forward a few months.
It is now February, and she’s talking about putting her dream into action and I am all for it. I had just talked to someone about wanting to write a show based off of my college years, and here she is already working it out. She asks if I’d like to come on as a production assistant and I’m all for it. As the weeks go by and the preparation is in order, there are casting calls, important rehearsals, and most importantly, we shoot the pilot. Last April was a wonderful experience. Never imagined that I’d get to work with such a talented group of individuals. Then it hit me, she saw me as a quality piece in her puzzle, and it never dawned on me that I would ever be essential to such a major project.
Fast forward to 2014 and here she is offering me an opportunity to be a part of the media company that she founded. And again, I am just in awe because she believes that I am valuable to her cause. I want to see this company and this project flourish and become what I know it can and will be. This wonderful creative team is full of ambition and drive. I admire their work ethic, and ability to see their dreams through to completion. They’ve turned a dream into plans, and put that plan into action. And I am just happy to be considered for this journey.
Please, take the time and see what I’m speaking about. This young creative team is offering quality. We aren’t just attempting to throw something out there. This team is full of people who are passionate about what they do and they’re working very hard to achieve their goals. Maroon Media will be a place to cultivate your dreams and create beautiful projects of quality.
Junior Citizens is a coming-of-age dramedy web series based in Philadelphia about three college friends. Izzy is a recent film graduate whose her-way-or-no-way attitude often causes more setbacks than triumphs.
Xavier is a free-spirited actor in his fifth year of school who wishes to act in theater. However, due to his variety of interests he changes his major on a regular basis.
Rhonda is also in her fifth year after taking her junior year off due to depression – a topic she is reluctant to share. Rhonda returns to Temple University determined to graduate but her anxiety heightens when most of her friends graduate on time – leaving her behind with the realization that she has to focus this time around.
Regardless, she returns to Philly and with the help of her overbearing mother Patricia they purchase a home in Philly. Abruptly, Rhonda invites Xavier and Izzy to live with her.
The friendship of the trio becomes tested when they become roommates while each have to deal with their own separate issues discovered during the transition from the college life to adulthood.
Junior Citizens has been an idea of the director Natsai Todd’s since 2010 but it wasn’t until the summer of 2012 when the majority of her friends graduated and moved back home while she still had a year to go that it dawned on her. That is what she wanted Junior Citizens to be about. She wanted to focus on the post-grad and fifth year experience.
This series is loosely based on her personal experiences during college and during her fifth year in terms of school, friendships, relationships, mental health, finances, and career goals. She wants Junior Citizens to explore various topics that effect the modern, college-educated, twenty- something year old.
College was not easy for Natsai. In 2011 she was diagnosed with adult ADD and clinical depression. The demands of school only magnified her symptoms so she had to take a year off to recover (this is also why she graduated a year off schedule). Mental health is a theme that she intends to apply to Junior Citizens to bring awareness to it.
One of the themes of Junior Citizens is parents allowing their children to grow up, children allowing the advice of their elders, and realizing nothing goes as planned. The early stages of adulthood is a confusing and trying phase that the characters of Junior Citizens are trying navigate through and come out on the other end in successful circumstances. This is a common one that needs to be shared.
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I forgot to take the dog out.
I let a friend down again.
I cannot meet this deadline.
For most women, pressure is often self-imposed. We constantly spread ourselves thin for the sake of pleasing everyone else and at the end of our days, we are left feeling tired and completely stressed out. These feelings bring upon thoughts that we are inadequate or that we aren’t enough. The reason is that as long as we believe that we aren’t enough, we also believe that we have to make up for it. God whispers, “You are not enough, .. in Me you are so much more.”God fills up our “not enough” with His infinite grace, love, and strength until we are MORE THAN ENOUGH!
2 Peter 1:3 “His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his…
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Many of us are hiding, and the weight of guilt, the weight of shame, the weight of feeling unable to share ourselves as we are is great… We spend much time putting on a facade that things are better than they are, but we aren’t the only one dealing with not so beautiful things. Because of the gospel, we don’t have to hide. Seek godly counsel. God is not limited in His abilities to reveal the truth. Be free…
This spoke to me on so many levels. The past two months have been rough. Does anyone else know that it’s been rough for me? No… I’m too busy pretending to be happy because it makes others feel better. Unfortunately, in the past few weeks I’ve realized that I do more to put others at ease, and to make them happy than I put into myself to achieve that peace of mind and happiness. I’m sure I could probably use a few mental health days from work and some time away from others if only for a moment, just to focus on me.
I have a few decisions to make and they will bring about great change for me, but instead of making them I’ve thought of every reason NOT to make them. In almost every aspect of it, the reasons were more so about other people than they were about me. Walking around with this “I’m fine and everything is good” attitude when on the inside, I’m dealing with what feels like the weight of the world. You can’t tell people that you’re unhappy; they like to think that you’re just not thankful for the things in your life. Truth is I’m grateful to have a job but I don’t like being here. I can smile all day and be nice to clients but knowing that I don’t want to be here and the only reason I have for staying it that my family will look at me like I’m crazy makes coming in seem like a chore that I loathe.
I’ve spent a great deal of time hiding and always being the shoulder others can lean on. Granted, I have a few people I talk to and even with them I am fairly guarded and hold back certain things. My last year of college, I was homeless. A few people knew, but for the most part, not too many people knew. I never shared that I was living in my car on most days or spending my time in the 24 hour computer lab and leaving around 6am or so just to go to the Health Education complex to workout and shower. I was doing so well with hiding that most days people didn’t even know that I had not eaten. I got good at hiding, and it seemed that no matter what, people always thought I had it together when in actuality I was falling apart. I was so good at hiding that in a time where I could have been using my story to help someone else out, I was holding it in.
Almost a year ago, I went to visit my school and had a meeting with the Dean of Students. To my surprise, after seeing me battle homelessness and not having food and such, they implemented a pantry for students who may not have access to food as well as a fund that professors put money in, so that students in a situation that was similar to mine could tap into and have certain resources. I hid from most people, but she knew my situation and she figured out a way that other students wouldn’t have to go through similar circumstances because if I was hiding, I’m sure that there a few more hiding right along with me.
There are few decisions that I made mentally that I need to make a reality. I am also at a growing point where I allow people in and want to increase my level of transparency breaking down the facade of having it all together and understanding that it isn’t just me going through things. It isn’t just me battling hard times and even when I don’t want to because I think it shows “strength” it’s okay to cry. In turn, I’m going to stop playing hide and seek with what has to be dealt with because running from it won’t change it; hiding from it won’t fix it. Simply going to continue giving it to God while also seeking counsel from those around me who I know have my best interest at heart and can pray with me, and give me Godly advice (not just things I want to hear but what I need to hear).
Guest Entry: “Halfway through My 20s and I am having a Mid Life Crisis. You’re Not Alone.” – Christopher BrownPosted in Uncategorized on February 26, 2014 by Mira
This post right here is something that I can, and I am sure many can relate to. Thanks Chris, you continue to inspire me.
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Hello All! For those of you who know me, you now that I am intentional about supporting those who continually work to do great things for the kingdom. Today, I am excited to bless you all with a guest entry written by my dear friend, and celebrity publicist, Christopher Brown. The experience shared in this post is timely and quite relatable. Enjoy…
At 26, I’ve been stifled by a pressure that many people my age are facing at this moment in their lives. Why am I not where I want be in life at my age? Why am I single? When will I start a family of my own? Why haven’t I found the job that I know I am qualified for? Am I settling?
At some point in my 20s, I have asked myself every last one of those questions, seeking results to confirm that I’m on the right…
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