Am I Enough?

Posted in Uncategorized on March 24, 2014 by Mira

Originally posted on sheliahwilliams:

I forgot to take the dog out.

I let a friend down again.

I cannot meet this deadline.

 For most women, pressure is often self-imposed. We constantly spread ourselves thin for the sake of pleasing everyone else and at the end of our days, we are left feeling tired and completely stressed out. These feelings bring upon thoughts that we are inadequate or that we aren’t enough. The reason is that as long as we believe that we aren’t enough, we also believe that we have to make up for it. God whispers, “You are not enough, .. in Me you are so much more.”God fills up our “not enough” with His infinite grace, love, and strength until we are MORE THAN ENOUGH!

 2 Peter 1:3 “His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his…

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Hidden Territories…

Posted in Uncategorized on March 24, 2014 by Mira

Many of us are hiding, and the weight of guilt, the weight of shame, the weight of feeling unable to share ourselves as we are is great… We spend much time putting on a facade that things are better than they are, but we aren’t the only one dealing with not so beautiful things. Because of the gospel, we don’t have to hide. Seek godly counsel. God is not limited in His abilities to reveal the truth. Be free…

This spoke to me on so many levels. The past two months have been rough. Does anyone else know that it’s been rough for me? No… I’m too busy pretending to be happy because it makes others feel better. Unfortunately, in the past few weeks I’ve realized that I do more to put others at ease, and to make them happy than I put into myself to achieve that peace of mind and happiness. I’m sure I could probably use a few mental health days from work and some time away from others if only for a moment, just to focus on me. 

I have a few decisions to make and they will bring about great change for me, but instead of making them I’ve thought of every reason NOT to make them. In almost every aspect of it, the reasons were more so about other people than they were about me. Walking around with this “I’m fine and everything is good” attitude when on the inside, I’m dealing with what feels like the weight of the world. You can’t tell people that you’re unhappy; they like to think that you’re just not thankful for the things in your life. Truth is I’m grateful to have a job but I don’t like being here. I can smile all day and be nice to clients but knowing that I don’t want to be here and the only reason I have for staying it that my family will look at me like I’m crazy makes coming in seem like a chore that I loathe. 

I’ve spent a great deal of time hiding and always being the shoulder others can lean on. Granted, I have a few people I talk to and even with them I am fairly guarded and hold back certain things. My last year of college, I was homeless. A few people knew, but for the most part, not too many people knew. I never shared that I was living in my car on most days or spending my time in the 24 hour computer lab and leaving around 6am or so just to go to the Health Education complex to workout and shower. I was doing so well with hiding that most days people didn’t even know that I had not eaten. I got good at hiding, and it seemed that no matter what, people always thought I had it together when in actuality I was falling apart. I was so good at hiding that in a time where I could have been using my story to help someone else out, I was holding it in. 

Almost a year ago, I went to visit my school and had a meeting with the Dean of Students. To my surprise, after seeing me battle homelessness and not having food and such, they implemented a pantry for students who may not have access to food as well as a fund that professors put money in, so that students in a situation that was similar to mine could tap into and have certain resources. I hid from most people, but she knew my situation and she figured out a way that other students wouldn’t have to go through similar circumstances because if I was hiding, I’m sure that there a few more hiding right along with me. 

There are few decisions that I made mentally that I need to make a reality. I am also at a growing point where I allow people in and want to increase my level of transparency breaking down the facade of having it all together and understanding that it isn’t just me going through things. It isn’t just me battling hard times and even when I don’t want to because I think it shows “strength” it’s okay to cry. In turn, I’m going to stop playing hide and seek with what has to be dealt with because running from it won’t change it; hiding from it won’t fix it. Simply going to continue giving it to God while also seeking counsel from those around me who I know have my best interest at heart and can pray with me, and give me Godly advice (not just things I want to hear but what I need to hear).

These hidden territories need to be open. I have to leave my comfort zone and be free.  #messyfaith #findingourstoryinesther

Guest Entry: “Halfway through My 20s and I am having a Mid Life Crisis. You’re Not Alone.” – Christopher Brown

Posted in Uncategorized on February 26, 2014 by Mira

Mira:

This post right here is something that I can, and I am sure many can relate to. Thanks Chris, you continue to inspire me.

Originally posted on sheliahwilliams:

Hello All! For those of you who know me, you now that I am intentional about supporting those who continually work to do great things for the kingdom. Today, I am excited to bless you all with a guest entry written by my dear friend, and celebrity publicist, Christopher Brown. The experience shared in this post is timely and quite relatable. Enjoy…

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At 26, I’ve been stifled by a pressure that many people my age are facing at this C.B. moment in their lives. Why am I not where I want be in life at my age? Why am I single? When will I start a family of my own? Why haven’t I found the job that I know I am qualified for? Am I settling?

At some point in my 20s, I have asked myself every last one of those questions, seeking results to confirm that I’m on the right…

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The Battle for Newark, the Battle for Camden

Posted in Camden NJ, Chris Christie, Education, Encouragement, Privatization on February 6, 2014 by Mira

The Battle for Newark, the Battle for Camden.

My heart goes out to your family…

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on February 5, 2014 by Mira

Today would’ve been your 19th birthday.. Sad thing is today is the day they chose to announce that your murderer will be fighting in a “celebrity” boxing match… I’m not quite sure how he’s labeled as a celebrity of any sort or why he’s been celebrated while you were on trial for your own death, but peace and blessings to your family as this cruel world gets a little more sick… Rest peacefully Trayvon. 

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CLICK THE LINK TO SIGN THE PETITION TO HAVE THIS FIGHT STOPPED:

https://www.change.org/petitions/damon-feldman-stop-the-george-zimmerman-celebrity-boxing-match

 

 

 

2013 in review

Posted in Uncategorized on January 21, 2014 by Mira

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2013 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 3,300 times in 2013. If it were a cable car, it would take about 55 trips to carry that many people.

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21 Day Fast..

Posted in Uncategorized on January 12, 2014 by Mira

…As I posted earlier, we began 21 Days of prayer and fasting Monday, January 6th and today brought it all into perspective. My motives were shallow and self pleasing. I gotta put in the work to crucify the flesh and go deeper, grow further and build on the relationship with God! I was thinking of all of the superficial things one could gain through this process, but today was something that I NEEDED! Not only was it eye opening to my selfish ways, but it allowed me to further understand how much more growth and fight is in me. This isn’t my first time fasting, but I got away from what I stood on prior to now. Before fasting was much more of a sacrifice for me, but not in ways that I thought of what superficial thing I’ve been hoping for would I receive. I was actually working towards a great connection, deeper relationship with Christ, and this time I started out worrying fully about myself and THINGS. It was spiritually cleansing to be in His presence today and hear from other people. I Needed that! Stay blessed fam! 

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